Today is a very difficult day for me.  First of all, I don’t feel very well.  My throat is sore, my sinuses are irritated and I keep coughing.  And second of all, my little dog is hurting and I cannot do anything for her.

I just made a call to the vet and am waiting for her to call me back.  We have decided because of her age (13) we are not going to put her through the stress of being knocked out, cut apart and then waking up to be in a cage surrounded by other dogs, who she does not get along with, and would probably be so irritated.  We are going to get her some drugs and make her as comfortable as possible and hold her and pet her and tell her what a good dog she is.

I just hope that she will be able to eat something and keep it down.  What a Jewish mother I am.

My friend told me once that when I adopted Jessie, she won the lottery.  We have spoiled that little girl to death, literally.  She had bladder stones when she came to us and it cost a small fortune for her surgery.  She was worth every penny.

We have had so many memorable walks together.  She still looks at me around 4:00 each day like she is ready to go outside and walk.

The worst thing she has ever done since she has been here was to eat one of my lipsticks.  I looked down at her and her mouth was covered with this bright red and I thought for certain she was bleeding to death.  When I reached down to look closer I discovered one of my lipsticks chewed to pieces.  And that is the worst thing she has ever done.  Bless her heart.

Since I have had her she has only puked once.  And now she is puking every day.

I just talked to the vet and I am going up to pick up medication for Jessie.  I haven’t even cried.  I just feel numb.